It's quiet for a split second
in my mind as my thoughts glitch.
replay over and over and over
that moment i can't erase for good.
suppress it.
drown it.
forget.

but it lives
simply to haunt me
as i walk down the hall
staring blankly at the blinking
exit sign

just want to get out
maybe if i get out
i can breathe
fresh air with no stench
of sweat and ***

the residue of ****** fluids.
have to get out.
have to breathe.
have to forget.

the exit sign stops blinking.
my legs stop moving.
I feel nothing but the lump
rising and choking me.
i gag on the thought
and hurl a pretty swirl
of colorful candy
onto the rug.

goodbye Casanova.