when I woke up this morning, you would have been half way there on the train away from this away from me.
you would have been writing, thinking, contemplating, arguing. pages would be filled up, like your heart, and I would keep wondering what you wrote.*
I have nothing to hold on to but your words, and letters you sent me. I read them, had every word memorized, learned the rhythm and tone, so I could hear your voice.
I find the deepest pain and the brightest joy in your creations. I long to know what you see with your eyes, how you think with your mind, how you make love with your body, how you live in the world with your ego.
I would have left my world for ours, in a heartbeat. I recognized you the first time we met. Why can't we run after our desires, live a life we truly like, have our dreams completely realized?
Why can't we become whom we truly are? You are what I want, I am what you want, why in the world can't we be together?
I want to fall in love, stay in love, die in love, to have you here right by me, to feel you from inside me. And that smile on your face and this smile on mine will forever shine.