starts the same. i wake up, and i'm alive. and i have hope. hope for the day. that today will be better, better than yesterday. and not as good as tomorrow. but the farther i get into the day, into today, the less hope i have. the worse things get. and by the time i climb into bed, i can barely breathe. it gets dark in my mind, so dark. and all i can do is hope for tomorrow.