your skin glowing in the June sun
speckled with freckles like grains of sand
head tilted back- relaxed- in my backyard
I am growing Holy basil and dill
tomatoes & sweet cilantro
fresh mint sprigs of delight
summer time tastes like loving you
lips red from ripe strawberries
you bit too hard, drew blood from my mouth
it's yours. it's all yours.
your green eyes - leaves on the catalpa tree
brimming with tears of joy
your gaze burrowing into my skin, my face, my hands
you throw your head back in absolute disbelief
laughing
my heart screams at the top of her lungs from the top of that grassy knoll
i want
i want
i want.
your beautiful wrists attached to your beautiful hands attached to me, holding my wrists
holding me down
between a rock and a hard place
fighting for release
fighting for breath
fighting you to become me
and me to become you
the pressure between us building
you tell me no no no
yes yes yes i say
you resist
until finally,
you relent
your golden waves of hair like water trickling down my back
warmed by the sun, I amble out of the ocean
onto the sand, the shore
a shiver
holding your hand in mine
yes yes yes
you give me exactly what i need,
never more, never less
space and freedom and autonomy
confinement and enclosure and entrapment
you pin me down
and then you let me go
I miss you when i am not trapped underneath you
i miss you when i am not covered in you
i miss you when i am not yours
it scares me
flying too close to the sun