you said you like red
so i carved your initials in my hips
blood on my carpet
you claim to love god
so i worship you like one
your existence stole me from my future
i prayed to you to keep me
you told me you like fire
so i burnt myself with the lighter
with your cigarette butts left on my nightstand
i hoped to rise from the ashes
as something you might like
halloween is your favorite holiday
so i become a skeleton
nothing but bones in your california king
even though i ripped myself apart
to be just for you
and now i am nothing
i still hope you find something
worth wanting in the scraps of who i used to be