i see these photos of you
from afar
then my stomach fills with dread
i dreamt last night you were in my bed
it was hazy, blurry
not sure if it was you
(i've never even touched you)
it's funny, though
i barely know you
i don't even know your full name
(i do, but i digress)
yet somehow you've slithered your way
into my thoughts
and i scroll past your pictures
she looks pretty, i knew her too
then my stomach fills with lava
with acid bubbling
and i feel it rise to my throat
i'm happy for you
(i'm not)
i'm not your friend
and i never was
and i never will be
(but i can pretend)
(i can tell people we are)
(you tell people we are)
(even though i can count the number of times we've met)
(on one hand)
still my stomach fills with regret
but the stars were never going to align
you pass by me like a shooting star
i've always been one to stargaze
i scroll away
i scroll away
before the bile
hits my tongue
(i don't even know you
and yet).