I took this.
My choice made
By no choice at all
No other way
It is propper
As it should be
This weight of knowing
To stay and pay homage
Treasuring unknown days
While my world decays around me
Trying to be your steady
Whispering okays in secret
Praying each time my eyes blur
Waiting is what it feels like
Inescapable as night and day
Crushingly so
This is not about me
Don't read this that way
It's about my sun and stars
At that point where daylight falls
And the weight of the heavens
I fear only what the dawn reveals
When you go to join mom
When my best friends are untethered
And I am left here to fend
For myself I am pressed
Exactly where I need to be
To support and to hold
To love you like you have me
This weight so great
Balances the weight you've always been
In my life that you gave me
I hope I helped at least in some way
As you prepare so I must
Shifting this weight onto me
So you may rest
The rest is waiting.
Heavy. Oh so heavy.