I taught myself how to tie a tie,
How to write,
How to play football,
How to love,
How to talk to people,
How to sing,
How to draw,
How to smile,
How to find joy,
How to be quite,
How to not speak unless spoken to,
How to keep my head down,
How to not be in the way,
How to always act happy,
How to put others needs before mine,
How to feel no emotion,
How to remove albatross for others,
How to look after them before myself.
I try so hard to be invisible,
I try so hard to not be a hindrance.
So why do I still feel guilt,
When asking for help myself.