Depression is not crying under the covers at 3 am
or looking at the blank white wall hours after hours.
Depression is getting up early and
doing the morning chores even when your body protests.
Depression is not cutting off friends
and disappearing from everyone’s life.
Depression is texting your friends
with a smile on your face and a bleeding heart.
Depression is sitting in front of your computer writing the due assignment
and thinking at the same time that it doesn’t really matter.
Depression is suppressing the desire
of having one more bite of that favorite strawberry cake
because there is no point.
Depression is sleeping 12 hours a day
to avoid thinking at all.
Depression is watching the reels showing flower valleys
with downpour rain and thinking
life can be so much better but not for me.
Depression is burying your dreams with your own hands
and crying over the grave for the wasted potential.
Depression is thinking about the future and
realizing your worth is in the negatives.
Depression is killing your inner child
so the adult you can merge with the rest of the world.
Depression is stop living the life and only surviving
because death doesn’t want you.
Depression is when your body is alive,
but your soul died.