Welcome to the pain,
Of wanting to be wanted,
And feeling unwanted.
It nags,
It bites,
It hurts at night,
It kills,
It breaks,
It makes me shake,
I always feel fake,
I’m not awake,
I need to brake.
And things were looking up,
I was finally enough,
But you ran,
Faster than I can catch up,
Hidden behind no response,
And my heart doesn’t let me give up.
It holds on to that string,
That maybe finally,
Someone befriended me.
But lies hurt more than truth,
And I'm sitting waiting for you,
You can't run with my heart,
How can I breathe that breath,
It's like you took the life from me,
And I'm left gasping,
For what’s left.
I'm sorry for being myself,
I know it’s more than a drop,
But I can't help but wonder,
How can I be loved,
When I hate myself a lot?