That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I woke up to the sound of your heartbeat.
Slow and steady, yet holding on for dear life.
The sound of your heavy breathing as if you're being dragged by death,
The same way your husband used to drag nicotine
From his cigarette.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I opened my eyes just to see your face.
Cheeks hollowed and sunken,
Eyes tired, but your lids had never fallen
Your skin clung tightly against your bones,
Neither flesh nor blood can be seen;
Just the misery on the outline
Of your decaying body.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I leaned forward to find your familiar scent,
Now masked by the flowers beside your casket.
The nauseating scent of pain and guilt wafting in the air
Knowing no words would amount to pay the forgotten fare.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I reached out my to feel your heart—
Now unmoving and frozen solid
As if stuck in time and forgotten how to beat.
It was but a spear to the chest,
The lingering feeling of a broken crest
As I watch you lay in rest.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
Your meal still laid on the table,
along with your 'goodbye' that hung on the cable.
Your bed on the corner of the room,
Along with your clothes that you'd no longer wear
And the lines on your unsaid prayer.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
I'm no quite sure if it's because of the coffee
Or the bitter aftertaste you left in my mouth,
But that morning felt so bleak,
I couldn't even move my mouth to speak.
That morning felt so lonely,
The house felt so empty as I search for your presence deep in my psyche.
That morning was mournful,
for you have not uttered said a single word.
It was awful.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
That day was a day full of stress and panic,
That day was full of tears,
That day was full of tearful goodbyes,
That day my world had fallen,
For the last thing I've heard from you was only your breathing that sounded laboured and broken.
That day will haunt me for the rest of my life.
We will continue to to dance merrily to the memory of when you're still in health,
Dive down to feel your love's depth,
Run back into your arms to feel your emotion's breadth,
And cry to the tune of your death.