My wounds open
My deepest cuts
Bleeding
Pouring
Draining
My life
They are always there
Aching
But i patched them
Hid them away
Why today?
Yesterday ?
And now
Why
Do they bleed
Brown ?
It's not August
I didn't hear
The sound
Yet
Fell
To the ground
Ground
The energy
In the dirt
It flirts
Flirts
One step away
I'm in grave
Danger
Of my brain
I feel like
A
Stranger
I don't recognize me
I'm someone else
That girl
From before
The girl
I hid away
Like a
Chore
The whore
The weak
The insecure
The sad
The brat
The desperate
Raped
Violated
Abused
Little
Girl
Little
Thing
Not me
Not
Me
But it's
Who I
See
Why?
Does she haunt
Me
_So suddenly _
I healed
I felt
I dealt
Yet I
Melt
I feel abandoned
Threatened
Violated
I see her
Loving him
Wanting
Him
Wanting
To swim
But only
Drowning
Drowning
Water fills her
Lungs
Slowly sinking
Never breathing
She falls on purpose
Thinking
She fuckin
Deserved
It
Deserved
It
I apologize for
Everything
I do
Or say
Til this day
I'm sorry
If i may
For existing
For breathing
I'm abandoned
By everyone
I'm bullied
Mocked
Abused
Shocked
It continues
To unlock
Every bruise
Every
Hand dealt
To my
Constant
Abuse
The voice inside
Says good
You deserved
It
You flirted
With
It
Wanted it
Desired
Expired
Expire
Expire
Me
I'm a disease
A
Disease
No
Not
Me
Her
Not me
Her
She hurts
She deserves
Her
...
Not me
Anymore
My wounds bleed
They see
Everyone sees
Their bastardly
Deeds
But
It doesn't
Fix me
They still
Broke me
Broke
Me
I'm still
Bleeding
Blood pools
But continues
I'm red
I'm brown
I'm blue
I'm broken
And I'm
Still
You
I'm still
You
That girl
Still hurt
I cannot
Heal
Some cuts
Can't be
Sewn
Cannot
Be
Undone
Forgiveness
Has not
Won
But i must
Ask myself
Do i belong?
I can hear her song
Did she belong?
It's me
I'm her
She didn't
She didn't
Deserve
She had worth
Worth
Why can't
I see
Why...
..
.
.
I bleed
My self worth
I soak
I bloat
A corpse
A corpse
I tried to
Kill
But still
She remains
She stains
All My favorite
Clothes
My favorite
People
I stain
On
Them
My blood
Ruins them
They clean
Themselves
Of
Me
I sit in my house
I sit in my soaked
Blouse
In the dark room
Alone on the floor
How i adore
My own
Pain
I constantly explore
The wounds
Reaching inside
Feeling my bones
My nerves
My hands
Covered
Soaked
Dark red
Wasn't my plan
Wasn't my plan
Wasn't
I relive
The pain
The man
Another man
Abandoned
Hotel room
His house
My brother's
Bedroom
His smile
His laugh
His lies
My cries
My self worth
Gone
Gone
I sang
Their song
Their song
Called it love
Love
To feel another's
Touch
Even if
It hurt
Even if
It made
Me flirt
With
A corpse
A grave
It made me
Feel great
Misbehaved
Sending me
To
My own
Grave
His help
His kindness
I didn't deserve
His cruelty
My blindness
His games
His grooming
It plays
It plays
I deserved this
Deserved
It
Hate me
Hate me
Everyone
Hates me
Release me
Release me
Everyone
Hates me
Annoying
Cry baby
I deserve
To be
In misery
But that's not me
No
Those are wounds
Wounds
From the past
Creeping inside
Bleeding
On my bones
They grow cold
Still I know
Her
And i know
Me
We are
The same
We are never
To blame
Blame
We are loved
Loved
Tie the bandages
Tie the bandages
The wounds will bleed
But i need not see
Need not flirt
With the image
Or dirt
I will hurt
But retain
My self worth
Singing
My own
Song
Sing along
To self worth
To love
And feeling
All of my
Hurt