I was meant to be beautiful
an embodiment of Mount Vesuvius
tall
mighty
dangerous in a way that draws eyes
Beauty was my pride
and my accomplice
I was meant to be a trinity divine
spilled into an ancient vineyard
aged in the patience of France
refined on quiet tongues
I was meant to be
what a child tastes for the first time
something whole
something untouched
circling back to purity
without knowing its name
I was meant to lead battalions
across fields of blood
through red grass
and past unmoving boulders
unyielding
certain of direction
But I did not become that
I became quiet instead
not absence
but a softer kind of arrival
I learned the weight of ordinary things
I fussed and became one with light
illuminating with a radiant skin
without asking to be seen
I learned that beauty
does not always announce itself
sometimes it stays
in still rooms
and unfinished thoughts
And still
I remember what I was meant to be
not as loss
but as echo