Im done thinking of all the possibilities that could make everything turn from beautiful to shattered.
My heavy heart that once beat so vibrantly is now so very vulnerable.
Vulnerable to the feelings I have pushed so far beneath my soul and terrified they would never reach the surface again.
Time and time again my heart has been shredded and torn so immensely that I wasn't sure it could feel that electric beat ever again.
The kind of beat that sends surges through your veins when your lips collide with somebody else's.
The kind of beat that leaves you breathless.
Then there’s you. So unbelievably beautiful, and you don’t even realize it.
You make me feel that beat again.  
I feel it when you kiss me.
All I want is for you to see yourself through my eyes.
All I want to do is to make you smile.
But underlying it all is how utterly terrified of my heart being shattered once more.
Im afraid of feeling something that is now so foreign to me.
I know I will never allow myself to feel again if I don't let my fears fly on wings of the past.
Just hold my hand, let me kiss you and we can paint the sky together.