theres alot of saddness i feel thats going around.some of us are lucky enough to be able to bear our soul and thoughts in writing it down to let it out .others keep it ******* inside not even wanting to speak of it .lol after hundreds of dollors in therphy the only thing i got out of it was how to journal everyday and to go back and read it and think about what id just said on paper.i found where all the poisoned feelings were comming from--- from there i just had to get the strength to wash it out of my life.theres still stains from all the toxins that built up over the years but at least with the help of a pen and notebook i was able to write things down that i just couldnt say out loud yet,its about how the internet is.... sometimes talking to someone face to face were to afraid of the reaction we might get --but to be able to type it out we dont have that fear of hearing the tone of there voice or expression on there face .i find putting things down on paper or on the computer i sometimes look back over it and i figure out the answers on my own or see where a situation wasnt as bad as it felt .we all have our own outlets for revealing and setting things in us free .its ironic i never thought about the pen and paper thing on my own,my therphiest use to act like she was getting the special edition everytime i handed her my notebook .i'll never forget the last conversation we had befor she had to leave her job.it was all about how someday she just knew i was going to write some amazing book and she wanted me to make sure i didnt forget who she was when i autographed it...i never thought about doing anything like that till the next time i picked up my pen ..now i hope she knew what she was talking about