As I sit in my bed
I think of everything I wish I could have said:
Dear Dad,
Why did you leave me
Like a piece of trash on the ground,
Or some dirt on your boots
You had other children,
Why couldn’t you love me like that, too
Dear Mom,
Why did you lie to me,
You always said you were sorry,
That it wouldn’t happen again,
Until I made you mad,
And you said you wish I were dead.
You beat me black and blue,
And then said
That it wasn’t true
Dear Candy,
Why did you leave,
You said you would always stay,
But then something happened,
And you didn't wake up the next day
You were the one person who loved me,
And then you went away
Dear Self,
Why did you hate me,
Hurt me, starve me,
Why did you make it your goal
To scar me
Why did you hate me so much,
That you tried to take life from me
Dear Past,
Why did you make me go through things
That most adults can’t imagine
What did you want me to learn,
Or did you just want me to burn
Was there a reason,
Or are you cruel too?