im falling
willingly.
unlike alice in wonderland there is no rabbit to chase
just myself to blame
instead of cupboards and mirrors
an endless void engulfs me whole
i don't hover
i plummet
down.
down.
down.
darkness cradles me into its clawing hands
grasping over my cracked lips
drowning my shuddering screams
now all that echos is a deafening silence
i dont fight
i surrender
i give
up.
up.
up.
shattered glass falls like diamond rain around me
scratching and piercing my cracked soul
unlike alice in wonderland theres no distorted clock
just an impending tick that has synced with my aching heart
marking my eternal suffering
i dont cut.
i burn.
the abyss keeps pushing me
down.
down.
down.
but when a streak of light flashes through the endless void
sparkling the tunnel with its dusty glow
i push myself back
into the rabid darkness
because im falling
willingly.
theres no going
up.
up.
up.