alas, i start a fire ahead of me shield the flame as it dances take a deep breath and release it feels as good as it hurts a dichotomy of shame a conundrum from which there is little hope for escape and just like that, i become a statistic
those glorious stalks of white and beige contain my salvation from the things i'd rather not think about right now
and each time i 'save' myself i cede another few minutes to the void
here is not where i want to be and so i opt to **** myself
i mean come on, if that's not melodramatic, i don't know what is.