who am i
without being *****
at the age of 7
who am i
without it going on
until i was 11
who am i
without keeping it a secret
for years and years
who am i
until it all
came bursting out
i am 29 years old
living in london
moved abroad
changed my life completey
i feel safe for the first time
ever in my life
what i thought i wanted
is not where i want to stop
suddenly i am reaching for more
i am grasping for more
i am doing more
i am applying myself more
suddenly i am applying
to medical school
suddenly i see myself
beyond all the darkness
that has almost consumed me
not so suddenly
i am getting to know
just erin
and i actually really like her
shes quite smart
i think 7 year old me
would think 29 year old me
is really cool
is really brave
is really smart
is really kind
is really well,
real
suddenly and not so suddenly
i am healing