Time warp
The years melting away and I feel
Restored
For the moment at least with nostalgic
Memories
Pride in never forgetting
It's a lie
Locked away, they're forgotten time.
Everything I loved, only if, in love, remembered
Or some trauma, indicted, and sentenced to the subconscious
Might the roles be reversed, and my memory be hindered
The nights are more real
When the days don't seem to want us.
Guilt no longer necessary to weather time's natural erosion.
Knowing and lost
And words I can't remember
Always slipping away
Into natural disorder
Easy to dismiss now
The recalling becomes a chore
And, in entropy, rests
Never to return to order
But somehow being re-triggered out of nowhere
The light is on
The switch is flipped
Disorder is gone
And a memory is tripped
Old habits return
For a moment, maybe more
Then lost to the sea
Of nostalgia, and ignored.
To resurface again
Out of entropic disintegration
And unceremoniously return
To a chaotic sleep.