If You Really Knew Me You would know, That I have no ambitions.
I lack ambition because I lack the trust and belief in myself needed to achieve my desired accomplishments.
If You Really Knew Me You would know, that I Live my life, jealous Of what others have accomplished Instead of making my own Accomplishments.
I hate that I cannot feel anything anymore Except pain or emptiness. Jealousy.
If You Really Knew Me You would know that People used to tell me I was the sweetest person They knew. Now...there's nothing to say.
I am afraid it has been So long since I have been That person...I don't know If she will ever come back.
If You Really Knew Me You would know I am terrified I will waste my whole life Wishing and regretting the Things I never did.
I am afraid my fear Of change Will continue to consume me. That it will continue to hold me back From accomplish anything. Instead, I will continue to lead A spiteful life, sick with jealousy For those who have the courage I do not.
If You Really Knew Me You would know that I don't know where I want my life to be. That I don't plan my future Because I am not sure if I even have one.
I am afraid to die a nobody. To leave this earth, having done nothing Worthy of being here.
If You Really Knew Me You would know that I want to be remembered For making a difference. I am tired of just sitting around Wishing my life away.
That I long to be different. That I pray one day I will Be able to break that tight chain My lack of ambition has on me. So that I am no longer holding myself back From changing the path of my future.
If You Really Knew Me** You would know that I am Simply human. I wonder: Why it is so hard For others to admit that To themselves?