I am suicide sleeping.
She forgot and took a day off.
So here I am.

I drive wreck-lessly.
windows down. music up.
daring a tire to blow. to lose control.
Stoplights and Speed Limits have become mere suggestions.

I am not invincible.
and I embrace it.
I'll shake hand with death before * I * die.

I am not coasting.
I am beyond your... verbs.
                     Your... adjectival states of being...

Undefined.
Indefinite.

I want to know. not to learn.
I want to see. not to discover.

I needed to be re-built. not demolished.

But I am without foundation.
Faithless.
God-less.

...Simply suicide sleeping.
One russian roulette away...