Surely I trust in the lord
Because nothing else has to the chord
Losing friendships like bridges long burnt down
But feeling the effect only now because you drown
Past sin creeping in to finish what you might have misheard
Rolling a dice yet landing on one each time
A mistake made in jest that lead to your crime
Punishment for 4 years back that came back as evidence
Like multiple law enforcers coming to your residence
No language can explain properly how a loss that repeats
Comes crashing down until it depletes
If one sky connects us, then pain should bring us together
Cause how else can I justify this endeavor
Easier to let go, but the empty road seems longer
I wish to take it, lord I pray you make me stronger
I betray you every day, my mouth a pit of vipers
And the venom eats at me, it seems I've paid the piper
Surely Judas deserved it, no one would ever argue that
But how do I deal with that, yet Christ still keeps me intact
To barely speak, a heart that beats, an anger with no outlet
If only we could spread the gospel the same way, like a fountain
I see the light, faintly, at the far end of the finish line
I know the path, the difficult one, from the struggle to the divine
Quarter way there, yet barely there, your feet betray your motives
Your past mistakes, a heavy stake, your life awaits on God's Locomotive