"today" she said
was the last time i saw your face
around 3pm at a café

"today" was the first time i couldn't talk to you
got stuck
whenever i tried to speak a word

"today" is the time i felt so sure of
falling in love with you despite the distance
and not talking with you for 5 months

"today" is the day i hate myself for being shy
and not telling you my feelings
from the begining

and mostly "today"
is full of regrets
and every month i celebrate it