It used to be that I couldn’t get her to turn and face me I couldn’t get her to lock eyes And when our eyes would meet She would ask what I was doing staring at her And I would answer that I was admiring her And she was silent
Now we match stares all the time And we just look at each other Perhaps we are looking into each other’s souls But it seems to be too late Because I can’t move in to kiss her I can’t tell her that I love her Because I can’t feel my love for her without shame
I can look into those beautiful eyes all day Those beautiful brown eyes Speckled with green She tells me I have deep brown eyes Because the phrase dark brown is not meaningful enough I don’t know what she means by it
I want to watch her as she watches me But it feels like it’s too late It doesn’t matter anymore She turned her head away when it mattered Funny how you get what you want past the expiration date I would have done anything to turn her head that day at the theater
She wouldn’t even look at me I should have known that day was it for me I wasn’t going to kiss her I was going to make a point by not kissing her But she moved in for the kiss And I couldn’t deny her my lips, as she denied me her eyes
I saw it all coming With these dull brown eyes But I went with it Hoping that I could look into her eyes Without her laughing Without her questioning Without having to worry I really wanted to see her love me
She doesn’t laugh anymore She does question it sometimes She doesn’t seem to worry But there is no love in her gaze Just guilt As if all I am is a bad reminder of the atrocities she committed As if my eyes carry my love That forbidden, shameful love And that love stings her But she can’t look away Because she loves the pain