I was talking to my friends these days
And they were worried about what gifts they should buy their dads
And it hit me
that I never worried about this, Dad,
I never had the chance to think about buying you a gift
and I tried to imagine what would I buy for you this Christmas
but thing is
I never go to know you, Dad,
I never got to know what you liked, what you wanted in this life
I never got to know you
outside the demons that you were carrying around
I never knew as a child how bad it was
for you to survive
and I loved you and I could not see you, Dad
and I never had the chance to think about
what gift would bring some joy in you heart
and now I'm furios, Dad,
I'm furious because now I am old enough
and if I had a chance, I could see you, I could hear you
And I'm furious because I am old enough
and I don't have to worry about buying you a gift
I'm furious because I am old enough
And I still don't know
what you want for Christmas.