and even on days when i
don’t feel the sadness so strongly
you are still, still,
the base of my thoughts

in the midst of a storm
in the grass before the dawn
how the little things
remind me of you -
yet the memories i keep
can only quell the lonely
for so long

i dream and dance upon
the figments of fading scars,
tear old wounds open
find you in the chaos

for i cannot let you go
and i cannot let anyone in
i miss you far too much
and i love you all the same

(A.H.Z)