And if you only knew what I know.
Then maybe you'd be happy.
Maybe you would realize.
How much you hurt me.
How much you're presence stings.
How much I love you.
Only if you knew what they know.
How they think.
How much we miss you.
How much you could actually live.
If only...if only..
You would just leave us alone.
And come back a person.
Come back a mother.
Come back a sister.
Come back a daughter.
Just leave the wife behind.
Let my soul rest.
Instead of waking up
in the middle of the night.
Just to hurt.
Just to cry.
Just to mourn.
Your life that you do not live.
Your love that you could have.
It's right here in front of you.
But its like everything is transparent.
And you are just wandering
Through out your own abyss.
So please...
Please..
I feel like a broken record.