Ive stared death in the face, lost all hope lost all faith, my life became chaotic
to everyone around me a disgrace, ashamed but couldnt help the chase,the
next phase what a big mistake,thinking i could handle it then evrything
went strange everything felt fake, the next line and im up again big smile on
my face, few more joints and im me again zoned out in to space, lost in
oblivion,alone depressed state, im ok again now for the next couple of days
then youll be back in my ears again, even more full of rage, ive adopted a
way of digging you deep in the grave, you always come back stronger even harder to face, i just cant find the answers to keep u away, i can keep u at bay
for a while and ignore the words that you say, but if i stay too long thinking
and stuck in one place, the walls they start shrinking until its you and i face to face, the silence becomes deafening, the voices make me shake, relentless ,
exhausting no pause no break, a violent attack on my soul my brain, take another anti psychotic to numb all the hurt and pain, the energy it takes the
body it drains , no words can describe no words to explain, psychosis in
doses the drugs help to escape, the more it exposes the more it encloses my mental state, the beating the drumming, the increased heart rate, the more i keep running, the echoes keep strumming , is this now my life ,
is this now my fate