I wake up in a cold sweat, my heart is racing. I struggle to breathe. I look at the clock and it is 430 am. I was up til 11pm not sleep has left me. I hit the shower but it doesn't help me get awake. The coffee is on but my eyes tell a sad tail. I empty half the pot before 7 and put the rest in a thermos to go. Out the door and into the river of humanity. I rush to work, into a sea of bodies, each hustling and jockeying for position like prize horses on a track that doesn't seem to end. I struggle to get my focus in front of my computer screen. Keyboards clicking, no one talks to anyone, we each are trapped in the river of information. I lose track of time and the world has gone dark. I leave but my problems follow me. On the bus ride home my mind races, ideas swirl. I wonder if others are having the problems that I am? I get home and collapse into my bed but I can't shut down. I just lay in bed felling like I am gonna drown.