My body aches and I'm in pain.
I put this on myself, I chose this path and I'm going to keep on walking down it.
My vision isn't clear because I think this is okay.
Why do I let someone do this to me, you ask?
Because I want to feel this way, even if it's only a little of this feeling.
I know that it can end bad, but I'm addicted to this feeling. And the only way I can get this feeling is by having something else hurt me.

I'm sorry to everyone that thought I would turn out okay, because I won't.
Not if I continue on this path.
Which I know I will, because this is the path I chose, so long ago.

This is the path I chose to the end. The end of a good life. The end of the right thing. The end of everything.