He told me he loved me yesterday.
I sat at a sticky dinner table staring;
hearing each word,
seeing every single letter part his lips,
smelling the fresh scent of spearmint
chewing gum he just unwrapped..

But if you're wondering how it made me feel,
it didn't.
I didn't feel a thing.
My heart's emotions were null and void
until a tear fell down my cheek.
A tear filled with the memories of what
we were and all that we said we'd be.
Wiping my heavy eyes,
I reminiscence each time
you spoke the same sentence I just heard.

I realized entirely too much in the seconds thereafter.
A realization that until someone makes those
three words sound as sinfully sweet as they do
when leaving your mouth,
my heart is forever indebted to you..
Can you fathom how scary that is?
Can you comprehend the severity of your hold on my heart?

It pains me to know that everything I want you to say,
came from a person whose emotions I could not reciprocate,
whose I love you's didn't mean much to me,
and whose feelings didn't make me feel.
Because until you and I are we,
numb is all I'll ever be.