Click. Click. Click.
Up down, up down, up down.
On, off. On, off. On, off.
Florescent flicker. Light to dark.
Do I really want to see that face in the mirror?
Not tonight.
Click. Down. Off.
Black.
Slumped down on the floor.
There's an icy breeze through the window.
But my face is hot. Burning.
The hair on my arms is up. Attentive.
Seems they're the only ones.
Keep a hushed voice.
It feels like a whisper could wake the world.
It's shaken mine before. A second time wouldn't be surprising.
Black ink on my face. Track marks, so to speak.
Every breath is a catalyst for the next wave.
If I breathe to calm myself, it acts defiantly, and I cry harder.
There's an earthquake in my body. Shaking, trembling.
It rattles my heart.
If it's quiet, it's like it never happened.
Pull the blanket over me. A towel, actually, but it'll do.
It's like I've taken ten years away, stepped back into size four shoes.
I'm hiding under my covers.
In the black.
In the silence.
One, two, three...
Watch out for Mr. Boogeyman.
See, how it works is, if I can't see him, he can't see me.
If you never see me cry, I'm never sad.
If you never see me hurt, I'm never in pain.
Click. Up. On.
Light.
Open your eyes and look in the mirror.
Hello
Mr. Boogeyman.
Click.