Why do I have so much anger, so much hate?
I wish I can just lock it all up in a crate.
And send it someplace far away.
And run, run as far as I can to a place where I can pray.
Pray for that crate to never come in my sight.
I just want to be in the light.
Where I can see clearly and not be blinded by my rage.
And be trapped by my anger in a cage.
No, I want to be free, I want to love.
I want to let go of the past and say "that's enough".
I want to be happy again, I want to let go of the memories.
But I can never forget, I can never forgive, I can never be at ease.
I am so angry at myself, for what you did, for what has happened to us.
At times I wish to **** myself, I wish to take a blade to my hand and end all this fuss.
But I can't,  I still have love in me, cooling this fire. There is only one thing  I can do to make life great.
I can only run, it will get me no where but just closer to the crate.