So you do??
Do you???
Oh ye ??!

I didn't have the courage to see my grandfather on his death bed,
I was to scared to ask the person I love out without getting paid!
I was always the waist of space in the family,
I was beaten for being naive and weak,
I would just sit and cry as the sun set,
waiting for the end of my miserable,
sickly life!
I was a pathetic child,
and I'm an old sick man In a young man's body,
I'm nearly out of motivation,
and I'm failing my education,
I'm living off my old reputation.

I won't ask you to imagine what it's like,
if the person you love tried to **** them self,
because you can't,
yes that's right,
I wasn't worth living for it seems,
I don't believe you have given it all up for one person,
and realised,
only other people can help her and make her happy,
all they had to do was have a chat,
and then oh look,
she hasn't been this happy in a long time,
professionals are doing the job my love failed to do!
I won't ask you to imagine how that feels,
because you can't!!!

It seems I'm to blame for what happened,
It was me who helped keep the secrets locked away,
It was me who picked her apart,
It was me who brought her life down with my own stress and anxiety,
It was me who held her back in life,
she now gets better and I'm now the one struggling to do the same,
perhaps It's time for me to disappear,
perhaps it's the only act of kindness I can still perform,
If there is a God, he would blame hell for my creation,
you know nothing of guilt,
you know nothing of hatred,
so chin up and keep moving!