the drugs have made me lose my mind,
so why do i keep craving it every time?
it has destroyed my life,
yet i choose to tell myself lies.
I get out of bed,
sit on the couch,
hours go by,
i don't even know why i bother to contemplate,
Ima do it any way.
i start blaming my past,
yes, i know there's therapy for that.
believe them when they say,
change only comes if the person is willing
to start their healing phase.
not only am i hurting myself,
the great pain i have caused to those i love.
just know i am trying my best,
i will not lose this battle pain.