I’ve been feeling a bit
Under the weather
Life keeps on changing
And sending me feathers
Of the wings that I had when I was an angel
I feel like I’ve fallen when I came by this tension
I don’t know how to see it to make its reflection
Less dreadful and lessen the self harm intention

I’ve been trying to hope and find peace in the things
That happen in moments every day like the winds
Passing by leaving sounds in the leaves

I’ve been trying to think with less brutality
Trying to have some flexibility
I discovered this concept called anti-fragility
It happens when your heart and its sensibility
Is challenged and strained by life’s novelty

If it doesn’t **** you it will make stronger
Hardships pass, lessons stay longer
All of the sayings have the same tendencies
And all of them sound like survivorship biases

I don’t need a lesson if I may be direct
I’m just human it’s human to feel all this dread
It’s human to be this tattered and cracked
So human to need an ear and some help

It’s human and proof of the fights that I had
The bets I took and the life that happened
It’s human to hold on to hurt and reflect
And not want to change from the very first step

I know that it seems like the millionth end
And this one feels bigger than any one yet
My tower has fallen and if I am to build
Anything new then before that I need
To cleanup the mess from this previous thing
And there’s no vacuum so I do it with tears
And there is no trash bin so the grief and the fears
Go out through my mouth and out through my eyes
I’m stubborn so that makes it take quite a while

I will get to it so just give me some time
I just need the space to figure the rhyme

Of this coming verse, new chorus and all
My heart will start blooming, but first it will fall.

_M