i'm scared of
direct conversation
i don't know if
i told you that

so heres the conversation
i wish i could have

i wonder
if the way i might feel
scares you
like it scares me

i can't exactly ask
if its okay
that i want to
call you pretty
(but is it?)

or if i can flirt,
in the subtle way
i have

or if you'd find it witty

honestly,
the way i want to be
honest
scares me

i don't want to say
too much
or pressure you
because

you've had too
much of that
already

i just want to know
if this could be
something that

i can wish for
subtly

again, i must shout from the rooftops
that it's okay
not to know
or want

these really are just questions
floating around without
a home

you don't need to catch them
although
a poem would be nice

i don't want to ruin our
friendship
because
i know i might