I have not won.
tho i am winning...
have not spiritually shifted from "terminal" to **** i beat it"
cuz there is still
red blood on the battlefield...
and sometimes still
white blinding pain and
grey exhaustion and confusion and
green pus and
brown ***** and
spasms and
anguish and
golden diarrhea
and the
slate blue tone of
unrelenting totality...