They said I drowned,
but the truth is softer:
I laid myself down like an offering.
I spit river into their open mouths.
I bit the lilies in half.
Silk turned cathedral.
I let my dress balloon with river light.
The earth had nowhere else for me.
If you pressed your ear to the surface,
you would have heard me humming.
They didn’t write that part.
When they pulled me out,
I still had violets in my teeth.
I still had the nerve to look alive.
If ruin was the crown they gave me,
I wore it dripping.
I wore it bright.
You think you know the story:
girl, river, grief.
But the water was warm that day.
The sky was a soft ache.
I was tired of carrying everyone else’s ending.
So I wrote my own.
Not drowned.
Not tragic.
Not accepting their ending.