I stare out the window, and I slowly smile
It comes easier this time
My lips break into my favorite love song
I can't stop singing it these days
But I don't think anything is wrong

It's raining heavily, quite heavily
But my mind doesn't linger on it these days
Well, not like usual anyway

instead of thinking about the beauty of nature like all other times
I think about the beauty of a smile
the beauty of a shy pair of eyes

I fell excited as I enter the room
I feel as if the days end too soon
My eyes are on the blackboard, I'm listening
But my mind is thinking

thinking about a pair of eyes
across the room,
wondering if they see me too

A soft brush of hands
A quick, hurried glance
I feel something like a mixture of excitement and fear,
As someone in particular comes near

A borrowed pen, a quick exchange,
sends my heart racing
as I can't keep the smile off my face
and my thoughts start pacing

My friends keep asking me
Why am I so happy?
why am I smiling?
and in response, I keep lying

Keep lying to myself and them
keep lying even as the day ends
But when night comes
wild, my thoughts run

I stare into the dark and sigh
As I finally realize
What this is...
Oh no...