I hate my smile
I hate my tears
I hate every ******* hair on me
I feel repulsed
Like I just might puke
What is this feeling of depair??
Even my sound, every syllable
Kills my mood and pins the hate
I loathe my smell, skin starts to crawl
I wish I were not so pathetic
I wanna cry but why bother
No one cares, its not just me
I feel so lost and worth no one's time
Hate the way I try to love myself
Finding thrill in wasteful wins
I know I lost yet still hold on
That spirit feeds the hate in me
I wanna die, just help my worthless self
Or maybe not I cant decide
I wanna feel the greatest sin
And then the gulit that could swallow me
What pride ? What love?
My greatest gift is hate