Don’t you fucking cry, don’t you dare fucking LOOK at me like that
Like the scared little love sick boy I know you are
Don’t you dare tell me I’m beautiful, STOP I don’t wanna hear it
Don’t explain yourself, for the love of GOD DON’T tell me how it happened
How thoughts became actions or somehow accidents even though it seems very on purpose to me
Those accidents or actions quickly became regrets mistakes you couldn’t scrub off with any amount of Head and Shoulders
No amount of silver tongued talking is gonna wipe this from my memory
So don’t you fucking cry you did this to yourself
But you didn’t make me like you, I did that on my own
I’m so mad at myself, the ignorant student repeating past mistakes like an overplayed song.
I thought I was playing it too cool, I thought I was keeping my distance
Keeping that vital separation that barrier between your heart and my own
Observing you with the detached interest of a 5 year old watching ants
Occasionally squishing them with a dirty thumb just to prove that he can
When did I start forgetting where I ended and you began?
Don’t fucking tell me you love me, you don’t understand
You say words much bigger than the feelings you are trying to express
Just keep being an asshole keep fucking other girls
Keep saying what you do and start doing what you say
Instead of using that silver tongue to kiss smiles on to my face.