I feel guilty for the life I have lived.
Because I am happy.
Because I have not struggle, I have not hatred, I have not broken.
Because I feel I do not deserve the privileges that I am allowed, nor do you deserve your shattered image.
How ****** up is that?
That I find guilt in my happiness?
That is because my life would be a treasure for someone else, I feel I did not earn my place, my home?
My life?
I have not been recalled to the factory, with a poison substance or cracks in my frame.
I have not been sent away to be reemerged with a new face and a fake smile.
I have not need to fake mine.
And this guilt
This crushing guilt that  still does not fracture me,
I’ll Feel it in my bones
                                 until
                                           the
                                                    day
                                                       ­        I
                                                           ­         die.