“Hey, are you okay?” Someone asked me
I looked at them and smiled
“Yeah, Im fine.” I lied
“No you’re not. Tell me what’s wrong.” They told me
“Okay, fine then.
Im tired
Im tired of people making fun of me
Im tired of being in debt
Im tired of feeling like my friends don’t like me
Im tired of being in love with two people who seem to hate each other
Im tired of making ‘jokes’ and no one taking them seriously
Im tired of lying to people to seem okay
And finally, Im tired of living.”
That’s what I want to say
I want to tell someone the truth
I want someone to realize that Im lying
When I say that I’m fine
But instead of telling them all of that
Instead of telling them the truth
I just lie to them and tell them that I’m fine
And I insist that I’m fine
Until they drop the topic
Then they go and talk to someone else
Like they always do
Because unless I’m faking being happy
Why would anyone want yo actually talk to me
They don’t. That’s the problem
No one ever actually texts me
They only respond to me
And most don’t even do that
“No, Im fine, I promise.” I’d say
“Okay then.” They say, as they walk away to go talk to someone else