I have been called many things in my life
Know-it-all and ditzy
Forceful and submissive
Serious and silly
Everyone has a different version of me in their head

And god, I can’t figure out what anyone wants
All of these words have been insults
Am I too much or too little?

I want to be like the girls who get along with everyone
Who can take a joke without anger but know how to clap back
Playful and fun but not stupid and fluffy

Everytime I try I just become insufferable
I don’t float with ease above the surface like they do
I plummet into the depths
Or I soar above the clouds
Entirely missing my intended goal

Please teach me to be likeable
I’m begging you
Someone
Instruct me
Mold me
Make me the way I should be