I’ll close my eyes
But I know it won’t
Change anything.
You’ll still walk
Out the door.

Maybe I’ll drown
Myself in the pool
But I know it won’t
Change anything.
You wouldn’t want
To save me.

I could try
Starving myself
But I know it won’t
Change anything.
You’ll chew up
My pride and
Spit out the rest.

I could run away
But I know it won’t
Change anything.
We both know
I’ll come crawling back.

What do you
Want from me?
Don’t answer that.
I already know.
You want nothing.
You want silence.

I could jump
From the gallows
But I know it won’t
Change anything.
You wouldn’t wear black.
You wouldn’t come to
My funeral.

I know you
Don’t want me dead.
But you don’t want me
And my heart is
Having trouble
Telling the difference.

I can hear the
Door creak open.
I can feel the cavity
Where you should be.
I close my eyes
But I know it won’t
Change anything.