Hey it's me , I just want you to know that I'm fine , I'm surviving , I'm coping , I'm me .

Hey it's me ... again , I just want you to know nothings changed it's getting better , so no need to worry .

Hey it's me ... ugh again , I just want you to know that you can sleep with a smile , I'm soaring high.

"hello? You there ! You probably tired now" I'll stop soon , stop bugging you , I know how annoying it can be , bye .
Hi it's me , I'm sorry I lied , it's killing me but I lied , I said I was fine but I'm not , I said I was surviving but I don't even know , I said I'm coping but I'm relapsing .

It's nighttime you know ? They are back . They are near , they draw closer as the clock ticks ! Their screams worsen , I'm no longer busy , no longer have anything to occupy my mind with , I'm afraid they are here.
I lied ! Everything has changed , I'm sorry I know lying is bad , I'll probably do it again,

I'm sorry I'm a liar , it's not getting better it's stagnant,  it's watching,  waiting for me, waiting for the trigger , waiting to pounce . I'm sorry I'm a liar.  

I lied I'm not soaring high,  I'm sinking lower with no expression .
It's not your business I know , it's no one's business I know , but it feels like I'm carrying the sorrows of generations , it seems like I'm hearing the cries of my ancestral line ? It feels like the waters of generations fall down my eyes ... sometimes it's painful to cry but i do .

Does this make sense ? One girl can't possibly hear this much, she can't possibly see this much , she can't possibly feel this much .

So yes I lied , I'm not sorry actually cause it's not your business .
I don't know why , I don't know why but it's different this time , it's too calm,  it's becoming too quiet .
I fear for it's return , I fear for how off-balance I'll be thrown .
They keep screaming , I can't shut them up ! Never mind , okay bye now .