i need you to be my perfect disaster.* a punch to the face of monotony. i need a change in my life and I need you to be the change. i need you to paint the blank walls I built around myself with a deep red. a passionate red. i need the red splatter of blood after you realize you've made a grave mistake. i need you to be the blood that runs clean after being so ***** for so long. i need you to be the change.