we start out in the middle of a spider's web, where doors surround us that lead to grassy roads and rocky roads, difficult to maneuver through, but i've walked on burning coals and left my fingers bleeding from scratching at your door like a dog abandoned in the winter frost, because i felt more secure with the honors of you destroying my house built out of marshmellows and toothpicks, and i don't want you half empty or half full, i want you coloring inside and outside the lines overflowing the spaces of my heart you occupied and called home, but i'm responsible for raining on your parade and shattering your soul, but even i know all these ways of binding you to myself with glue, duct tape, stitches, gum, staples, paperclips, knots, can't keep under wraps for long, so i will let my clouds swell with compassion you couldn't understand because you're the flashlight in my haunted forest, shining a light on any ghosts that seem damaging to myself because you've always been there to guide me back home and keep me from falling from grace headfirst, but mother nature decides what sickening plot twist will destroy us, and you know i can't control the disgusting weather but i wish i could.